SOMEONE commented that for my age of soon-to-be 24, i was quite inmature. Am i really that immature?

i know to a certain extent i am but then i believe its not as bad as u all make out to be.
i am not childish - i am just young at heart and i just love to play arnd. (Does playing with chocolates and using chocolate syrup on a plate to draw and play tic-tac-toe and writing my own name constitute to being inmature? hahaha i dun think so.....)

i know i am not mature in the sense that i am still living in my own pampered lifestyle and seemingly ppl arnd me look at me as if i spend money like water, buying things as i wan, like a spendthrift. but then, i can tell u all i am not rich. i dun spend wat i cannot afford. i dun swipe credit cards and spend until i cannot pay. true enough, i dun have to pay for my own sch fees or getting no allowances from parents like some ppl. but i did think of saving up. but in the end i always tell myself that theres no point in saving up all these money and seeing the things i like but not able to buy them. Money would be earned when i start working.

i know a lot of ppl way before my age are already taking care of their family. Making decisioins all these. But for me, there isnt a need for me to step up and make sure things are right because i have 3 elder sisters to do everything. i dun really have a say thou..

i do comment that i have to wash plates la, wash clothes la etc.. when without a maid. but i dun sulk like a spoilt brat and not dun do anything. i still do wat i need to to!

Other than my NS, i can say i hardly suffered much hardship over my 24years of life. if i can, i would not prefer to work. if i can, i would rather stay at home and laze arnd. and i did just that. not that i need to work to support myself. if possible, i would take the easy way out and relax.

For me, being part of being inmature would be to do things insisting on their ways, without listening to the advice of others, always thinking they are right.Those who dunno how to think and not caring about other feelings etc. (Randy, although we always indirectly say u are old, i know u dun mind us saying cuz i know our group already understand each other so well.) but then, i do think of people before i do or say things out. Maybe sometimes unintentionally i would offend ppl. so if i offended u, i've got nothing to say. i like to joke with ppl so that they will laugh and enjoy the conversations. sometimes, i do look dumb in doing so but i dun really care that much.

i know that i need to start learning the real ways of life. i always think to myself, if i get myself stuck in the situation that i see arnd me, what do i do? can i solve it? or will i crumble under pressure? i know i cant handle big situations yet, but i guess thats just me. wat can i do..

well, my conscience does allow me to say that i am still fine and happy with the way i am living now. Care-less about the situations going on arnd me until i am really needed. i know i am not prepared to face the harsh world and the politics that will go on after i step out of sch. But then, until i am forced to face it, i would not do it.

Anyway, i will be heading to KL wif my family for holiday in a few hours time. Will blog bout it when i come back!
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